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I never knew i wld be alone.
I nv knew you wld fabricate such a big and long lie to put me into.
Now that you are not the person that i know.
Take care.

How well can you reassure your Dearest, when he feels that the r/s is staling?

How well can you hug him everynight, so that he felt LoVe and treassured?

How well can you see how he thinks? Realising the so many short comings you have, and that for all these years, he have been looking out for you for, and tolerating these nonsence you put up?

How well can you whisper i LoVe You to him in his ears?

How well can you hold his hand on one of the many nights stroll where no conversation is needed, yet amongst that awkard silence, you both felt connected.

How well can you kiss him, so as to keep him asking for more?

How well do you LoVe this special guy in ya life?

Have you over look how ya Dearest feel lately? Tiffs? Fights? Making him sad, and cries?

Dun worry, you guys fought and cried because you all cared about each other.

You fought so as to not let him go,

You cried so as to show how remorse you are, but jus this remorse is hidden behind your pride.

Go, give him a hug. Even though he maybe busy at work. Jus go to him now, and give him a hug. And that magical i LoVe You delievered into his ears, his heart.

All the best in the coming Christmas^^

Feeling melancholic lately, i realise i need to get back to basics instead of filling myself with such melancholy, displaying a bad demean.

Here i shall use a new txt, courier, the elegance of simple typewriter txt.

I need a holiday i realise, badly i need one.

Kian is in London, while am still stuck here in Singapore.

I want to travel, i jus want to see the World, someday, would anyone promise me to bring me around to see the World? How i wish right now, am on this very beautiful hill top, sitting down, enjoying the serenity and reading a book, or simply jus lying in my Darling's arms. Or perhaps, on the cold streets of romantic London, strolling away.

I need a pet too, a pet dog would be great. For am jus so lonely, i need some company.

Am blissful. Recently around my life, blissful monogamous couples surrounds me. This really knocks me out, in a good way that is. From my previous experiences with guy(s) in my circle, LoVe is never easy, for it is never monogamous. The past i shall not mention, for i always believe no one person is wrong in a r/s.

The future me and Darling Kian hold, i will look forward to and hold on to it no matter what., for he, he is my one and only. The only person i want to walk with the rest of my life, down LoVe-road, the only person i want to be there for, and care for.

Hubby, you always say, because of me, you have changed to be a better person. Hubby, also, because of You, i have become a much better person. You have turn a ex-undead like me into a living with blood and warmth in me. Hubby, i LoVe You, i LoVe you so much. I dun care about anything more except for You.

I LoVe You...baby YQ

p.s this is jus the small surprise...the other one is coming soon^^

Yeah, hope all of you liked my new blog header. Did it out of a sudden urge, and while doing it..i had you and only you in my mind. Darling Kian, the colour you like most...and now mine's favourite too.

And the song...True, by Ryan Caberra.

Yes it is true i LoVe U....i LoVe you...and am still LoVing you alot.

Muackz. Smoooches!

Foreword: the following content of the blog is rather messy and crap. I have no idea why, but perhaps the melancholy ba. Haha...still indulge! And am planning to do a photo journey for Christmas titled <<The loner Journey>>. Wait for it oh^^

Christmas. Christmas is jus round the corner, about 1.5 months. To critic that it is still long away....it is not exactly. Christmas is a time to be happy^^ and a season of giving! So ppl give if you can! It is never to selfish to share what extra you have. The giving need not be to the poor, etc, etc, but how about jus ya frens? Ppl around you, like ya mum and dad? When was the last time you give someone impt to you something?

Presents are so LoVely....hmmm when was the last time i recieve a present? Haha hao jiu hao jiu le...

Christmas, like in many people's wish, me too, i want a white Christmas. Sigh, why am i so melancholic on Christmas? Well, i guess it is not so bad to jus stroll along the crowded orchard road indulging in the happiness of the festive. No doubt, nothing beats holding ya LoVer's hands and soaking in the romance....or perhaps the chill-dine with a crowd of frens...but perhaps for me this year...jus a simple celebrate-myself will do ba. It is a good time to spend some time alone doing self-reflection. The year is about to end le....is it a good or bad thing? I duno...the future is so uncertain, and the present am comfy with...duh am not totally sastified. Sigh, perhaps a new year would be better ba....for well...i duno...am jus crapping. My heart is feeling shit now haha..

I am very tire...but still i wan to jus typ out this post...for it have been a long time since i blog le. Christmas...i jus wish i have a nice house...with me and my Darling, and imagine all the decoration we can do together...and all the time we can spend romantically together. Darling when can we go for the seaview chalet? Remember the seafood BBQ and grill i wanna prepare for you? Remember all the goodies i wanna bake for you? When can we?....hee looking forward orh^^

Yeah this wld be a dream-Christmas decorated house!

Life. Life have been busy lately. Busy it is, life have been fulfiling and sastifying. Been busy with research in the epidemiology dept of the Prev Med Branch. Been busy with planning of lectures to the 200+ medics, and also for the nxt batch of public health specialists. Been busy re-writing the course manual with a colleague. Busy busy busy...

and oh i fell in LoVe with Des Ree' <<Life>>

But but but, Darling, no matter how busy i am, i will never forget to allocate majority of my time for you! You are the most impt to me in my Life. Anything for you okie? Muackz!

Why. Why am i still at square one. Bring me to you okie? I need you in my Life. I need you. I want you. I am craving for you. I LoVe you.

Am awarded BEST TRAINEE for my 39th Basic Public Health Specialist Course.

For the past 3 days, my total sleep is only 8 hours.

Been so busy with work that i jus drop dead and sleep^^....

Jus finished decorating my cubicle....RED RED RED! cos Kian LoVe RED too haha^^

KK going back to sleep...tire...tml off...but still mus go back office....geex the medical directives, the travel advisory...and the nxt intake prep...

I jus like using this crappy two words so much when i gets pissed of and moody. But of course not use it at everybody...sigh. Crap Shit~

Feeling horrible, at my pit bottom. Why do i have to feel this way. Why dun things work out for me. Why mus life be so torturing. Everything is jus so no right: work, and even jus a simple online game. FUCK i really hate it! And so wanna cry now.

I am jus another insignificant piece of crap, let me fizzle into thin air and disappear a'ight. Stop the tears that are flowing uncontrolably out of my eyes, i hate everything! ARGHZZzzzzzz WTF!

=(   =(   =(   =(  sobz.